Living in the Chaos

Today at work we had an ice breaker that asked us to write five words that described our summer thus far. I sat there and thought to myself, what would those words be and why? It was a five minute activity, therefore, I didn't have a lot of time to think about it. However, now that I am sitting at home and really thinking about it, I can expand on the five words.

1-Productive: What this means is that I spent the summer getting things done for the up coming year. Whether it be moving out, finding a job, or setting myself up for grad school. Busy is another good word to put here because moving out on your own is not easy and takes some getting used to. If that means shopping for food; knowing how to spend the money, where and how much to buy. Or paying bills and getting accustomed to a budget. Or simply learning how to run a household with another human being that is different than me. Learning to compromise, speak with understanding, and trust the person you are living with, but still make what sure what I want is considered. There is a lot more I could add this section, but then you'd be reading for days...lol...all of these things are in this section because they either taught me something new or prepared me for something new.

2-Family&Friends: This is considered one word because they are pretty much the same thing. My family are my friends and vice versa. I used this word because I spent a lot of time with my family exploring and adventuring, crying and supporting, hanging out and relaxing. Overall just being with each other, sharing the same space and the same air. Sharing stories and laughing with each other. Most of all we continued to make memories together. Love. 

3-Out of my comfort zone: I chose this group of words because this summer has been one of the craziest summers to date. I called off my wedding 3 months before the date, I started dating again, I moved out, I've gone out with friends more than before and shared so many laughs, I went to Vegas for the first time and had a blast. Most of all I fell in love with myself for the first time. This all may seem remedial to all of you, but for someone like me who does more for everyone else or who usually cares more about what others think than how I feel, you'd know that all of this is way out of my box, but boy am I glad for it all because I am 100% more confident with who I am. 

4-Relaxing: Yes, this summer has been busy and slightly overwhelming, but in the midst of if it all I have been able to find some time to rest. Not only physically, but mentally. You have no idea how wonderful it has been to be at peace with myself for all the choices I have made over this past summer. That alone is relaxing and has allowed me to focus on more important things with a clear mind, body and spirit. 

5-Chaotic: I say this for all the the words used above and I won't repeat them, but for the greatest of reasons I have been on a whirlwind of chaos. Between getting a new job and trying to juggle both to figuring out my schedule now that I am working 41 hours and going to school full time, I wonder how I am going to pull it off, but I remind myself it is all worth it and God is walking me through it. I cannot go wrong. 

Thanks for reading...
Sammie ❤